I am sorry that I haven't gotten this out. I started it on May 20, belive it or not. I will jump forward in the next post, it may be a long one sorry about that.
All of this is only for a little bit. That's what my mother-in-love keeps telling me. This is true, in the big picture of things. I feel like I am worthless because I am suppose to be taking it easy. I had my port placed on May 14th. Latter that night I started having pain in my chest, all across my chest but I just thought it was from the port. All through the weekend it would hurt to breath, to bend over, to lay a certain way. I called my doctors office and they encouraged me to go to the ER. They did an EKG, lab work, and an x-ray. Nothing was found, which is good, however I didn't have answers. I returned home feeling very tired and was told that I need to not do anything. I returend to the ER last night with the same thing yet it had moved to my back. I got to have a CT scan and again nothing was found. So here I am in bed while my family is bustling around me geting things done. I am trully blessed. They wont let me do anything that will exurt myself. It is one of the hardest things for me to do, take care of myself, but that is what they need from me. They need me to keep me going for them. So I am trying to be opedient and do just that.
Pain, they said that this port will become my best friend. Well I am sure that it will as soon as it is given a chance to accutaly heal and for my body to get use to it. It has been 6 days sence it was placed and has already been accessed twice. Let me tell you the fist time wasn't bad. The second time... I cried. It was very painful, the act of pushing on it alone is ouchy but add shuving a needel shunt thing into it. I know all of this is just but a moment, but it is wearing on me.
My friends surround me with love everyday, checking on me, calling me, driving me, and encouraging me. My family gives me strangth to keep moving forward. I love my village so much!! I could not do this with out my God and my village.
On a much happier note, we were able to get the floor poured for the basement, again with the help of wonderful friends and family. We got to spend a couple diffrent afternoons out on our boat. I sititng and watching the family enjoy thier much needed brake. The fresh air and sunshine were much appriated.
The food that we continue to recive has been wonderful!! Such a blessing. I can not say thank you enough to everyone who has been showering our family with so much love and support.
In His Love,
Too Grit To Quit,
Anna
I have 2 rounds of Chemo now, this first week after treatment seems to be the worst. The nausia isn't too bad, they have given me a lot of diffrent tools to help with that. I do suffer from exterime ecaustion, a kind that is like nothing I have really never had before. Well maybe combind a really bad hangover and a newbron baby. Yeah that is close. My body feel very heavey and I know that my insides are working overtime. After my first round my boys came berrling out of the house sayting that they were ready to be my bald budies, so tht next morning we did just that. With Hannah's help we came up with a very fun head cover. The second week is much better and I feel much more like myself and can do more things. I try to do what I can but I have a wonderful support system that is always keeping thier eye on me and will to step in at any given moment. I have been so humbeld by all the love a support that I ahve been getting. I trully am so blessed. I wonderful thing h...
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